Hi everyone out there!
Most girls on my cheer team call themselves “fat” when most of them are really not ( I find myself at this stage to ).
It’s terrifying looking in the mirror everyday and seeing a body that you’re not happy with! It’s hard looking at my sister and seeing how much lower her weight is to me even though she is only 18 months older than me. UGH! It’s just so hard! I can’t seem to lose weight! My legs are too big! My little rolls on the sides on my hips are ugly! WHY CAN’T I LOOK GOOD IN A SWIMSUIT! Sadly this is a lie most girls have come to believe. I went through a stage ( and some times struggle with it ) thinking I am over weight and I desperately wanted to lose it. I have the hour glass figure, so therefore I have some hips and some chest aria. My sister is very skinny and my mom says I compare my self too much to her. To be honest, I ignored her. I checked my BMI, and was starting to think…. ” hey, maybe I’m not fat. ” But my heart sunked when the chart said I was 5 lbs overweight. You might think 5 lbs? WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU KID? Yeah I know my mom thought I was crazy to. But, 5 lbs felt like 40 to me. I asked all of my family if I was ” Fat”. They said no. I asked them ” but why did my BMI chart say I was overweight?!” All of them say I have extreme amounts of muscles, and muscle weighs more than fat. It made me feel better a little, but not much. I would wake up every morning, look at my stomach, and think it was to big. My mom would say if I didn’t like the size of my stomach, than do something about it! Well, I of course took it the wrong way and thought she was saying I was fat. I got depressed. Than later I started doing 20 sit ups a day, and drank tons of water. About a week later…. I lost 2 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know, not a big weight lost but I was finally happy! For a while at least. Then I looked in the mirror again and though my stomach was still to big! I would say “my stomach needs to be completely flat”. I continued to exercise and drink water. I started to get in to many fights with my mom, and even had to skip out on a ” bonding day” with my cheer team! My sister and the rest of the girls went to get coffee without me. I was so angry at her! ” She just don’t understand me!” “I’m right she’s wrong.” I gave her so much grief! My mom later figured out that I was probably acting so short-tempered to everyone and being very mean, because it was the way I felt about myself. I didn’t believe her at first. But what if that was the reason? I felt the same, I was acting the same, right? WRONG! As soon as my mom prayed with me and told me I was beautiful, I immediately broke down crying and told her I was sorry over a million times! It was like I was finally free!!!!!!!!!!!!! I still exercise now ( sometimes, I get lazy 😅😄) but that’s nothing to beat yourself up about! Your beautiful just the way you are. It’s good to exercise, but don’t make it be so serious you start acting bad like I did. Remember God made you special, and he loves you very much!
Psalm 139: 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.